Tina’s Story

I was 22 and went out with my friends for dinner and we left around Half 10pm I was dragged and he used chloroform to knock me out and I was raped.
I was found in an ally way in town, I had no idea where I was until a woman
Found me and took me to her job which she worked in a hospital
She done all the tests and I was so mad about what I went through I have never told anyone I never came forward to the police because I didn’t see the man. I lost all my confidence and self-esteem It’s been 8 years and I am still like that i cannot trust any man which is why I have only gone dates and not in a relationship.
I am afraid of going to therapy because I don’t want to relieve it again but that doesn’t work because I see it everyday and even when I sleep I only get 2-3 hrs sleep every night.
I work all the time to keep me occupied I am a healthcare assistant in a nursing home and I easily get distracted from going into my head and I get afraid.
I would love to be able to write a book on how my life turned out because of this low self esteem no confidence my weight and many more things that I feel.
I didn’t want to live at all because of this, the only thing that keeps me calm is music I done piano for 10 years and I love listening to music because it calms me down