Anonymous Story: Me Too

I was sexually abused on multiple different occasions by fellow military members. Both took advantage of me while I was under the influence. I never got justice for the first one, though I went the legal route. I didn’t go the route for the others because I felt like I was going to get any justice for the others. also I was being told why would I put myself back in that vulnerable state when you’ve been taken advantage of before in that state, also that I’m basically asking for it at that point. I started blaming myself and feeling like it was all my fault or that it never happened. because all of this I started to abuse alcohol a lot, to the point where I tried commiting suicide. I really do not care about myself, my higher ups knew this and still did nothing. I would like to tell my story in more detail