Anonymous Story: I Can’t Swim Again

When I was about 9 years old, I was always at my grandmas house. She lived with my aunt, uncle, and my 3 cousins. The latest of the 3 was named Austin. He was my favorite because we always hung out and he always made me feel happy (my home life was horrible so I went there to get away a lot). One day, he, my brother, and I all went swimming. We had a blast and afted about 4 hours of swimming, we went inside. I always changed in Austins room since my little cousin was young and still took naps. It was usually safe, until this day. Austin walked in on me undressing and he closed the door behind himself, no locks. He was 3 years older than me so he knew very well what he was doing. He forced me down onto the bottom bunk.of his bed and forced me to kiss him and to suck his penis. The rest is blurry, but I can taste his saliva in my mouth and the horrid smell of his junk. I remember my uncle walking in twice and never once questioning what he was doing to me. I’m so scarred from this and I think I have PTSD. I can’t even be intimate with my boyfriend without freaking out or panicking. I’m broken and at 18, I cant even function normally. This is the first time I’ve ever gotten the story out too. Hopefully this can help me recover. Thank you.