Anonymous Poem: Innocence

INNOCENCE

IN BRIGHT LIGHTS YOU STOLE OUR INNOCENCE

NOW WE CAN’T SLEEP WITHOUT A LIGHT
TRYING TO SEE THAT JUST MAYBE WE COULD GET THAT BACK

REPLAYS A ZILLION TIMES OVER HOW WE COULD HAVE CHANGED THOSE EVENTS
REWIND AND ERASE THOSE EVENTS

BUT IT’S THE NIGHTMARES OF HOW WE INDURED
THE BAD DREAMS THE GUILT THE MENTAL ANGUISH
THE WONDERING
HOW OUR LIVES JUST MIGHT BE A LITTLE DIFFERENT
IF YOU HADN’T OF
DONE THAT

IF YOU HADN’T OF
IMPOSED ON THAT

THAT DIDN’T BELONG TO YOU

ONLY IF YOU HAD OF THOUGHT OF THE EFFECTS OF THAT

WE SIT WITH PAIN IN OUR SOULS
WE SIT WITH MEMORIES WE’D RATHER FORGET

WE STILL SMILLED AND PLAYED OUR PART

BECAUSE DON’T NOBODY WANNA HEAR ABOUT YOUR PAIN

WON’T NOBODY BELIEVE HE DID THAT TO US

WON’T NOBODY BELIEVE
“SHEEEEEEEEEEE”
DID THAT TO US

PROMISES OF THINGS WE WOULD HAVE GOTTEN ANYWAY

BUT BEING A CHILD OF COURSE WE DIDN’T THINK THAT WAY

ALL SMILES AFTER YOUR DONE WITH US MOSTLY
BECAUSE THE PAIN STOPPED
PLUS YOU WERE AN ADULT
AND KNEW HOW TO PACIFY US

IN BRIGHT LIGHTS YOU STOLE OUR INNOCENCE
NOW WE CAN’T SLEEP WITHOUT A LIGHT TRYING TO SEE
THAT JUST MAYBE WE COULD GET THAT BACK

SHOCKED- MOUTHS DROP
BUT WHY WHEN LOOKING BACK YOU SAW OUR PAIN
BUT CHoSE TO Look THE OTHER AWAY
YOU HAD TO HAVE KNOWN
NO WAY NO HOW YOU DIDN’T KNOW

BROKEN HEARTS LEFT BEHIND
UNFINISHED BUSINESS
UNCHECKED SHIT

FEELINGS ALL AMIST
YET HERE WE STAND WITH ALL
THE ARROWS IN OUR BACKS

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES YOU MAY APPOLOGIZE

NO MATTER HOW MANY MEETINGS WE ENDURE
RELIEVING THAT PAIN
DREADING UP OLD ,MEMORIES
WE’D RATHER LEAVE BEHIND

THIS PAIN DON’T JUST
TALK AWAY

THIS PAIN WE CARRY WE SAY TO OURSELVES

I’LL GET RID OF YOU ONE DAY

BUT EVERY MORNING WE AWAKE WE PUT ON THIS MASK

JUST TO APPEASE YA’LL’S ASS
WE FEEL YOU NEED T PAY
WE FEEL YOU SHOULD DIE
LIKE YOU KILLED US INSIDE

WE FEEL LIKE LOOKING YOU IN YOUR EYES
AND ASK YOU
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????

DAY DREAMING THAT THESE NIGHTMARES
WILL GO AWAY

PRAYING FOR OUR SALVATION WHILE PRAYING FOR YOUR DEMISE

AND NOT ONE SINGLE ONE OF YOU
WHO HAS NOT WALKED IN THESE SHOES
DARE TRY TO JUDGE US

IN BRIGHT LIGHTS THEY STOLE OUR INNOCENCE
BUT TONIGHT WE SLEEPING IN THE DARK

WITH NO LIGHTS
TRYING
TO TAKE BACK
WHAT YOU STOLE FROM US

“OUR”
“INNOCENCE”