Anonymous Poem: I See Him in the News from Time to Time

Honestly I am afraid to even tell this,
afraid he has access somehow to this
and will know that I am telling.

What to do?
I see him in the news from time to time.
He is a high profile person.

Trauma and memories.

I have written it
but there is no such thing as a private forum.

So much is in the news. It’s good to see some high profile names getting called out
and even sentenced.

I have a lot of fear, because of threats made to me in the past. I just want to live
and be free from fear of retaliation.
And for me, trying to stand up and not be a statistic.
To be a person.

I am not sure if I can tell this story and I keep hoping someone else comes forward
with an accusation against the same person so I can believe in myself.
I don’t want this to be my story.

What to do?
I see him in the news from time to time.

Brings back so much trauma.
Knowing he got away with it.
Scared that I am letting down any other potential victims of this person by being silent.

I am still afraid of him.
I forget about it as much as I can and tell myself it never happened.
I guess this is called disassociation. It certainly has been a survival technique.