Anonymous Story: They took a piece of me that I will never get back

Anonymous Story: They took a piece of me that I will never get back

I was only 15 at the time and I’ve still been unable to tell anyone this. I was invited to a “party” with my then boyfriend and his friends. When we got to his friends house, no one was there yet but they suggested we start drinking to get ready before everyone else came. It was just me, my boyfriend and his two friends. I don’t remember specifically the details from when we started drinking, up until the actual rape because I’ve tried my hardest to block it out. Vaguely, I remember them carrying me into a walk in closet. I was basically paralyzed from the loads of alcohol they gave me. I remember saying “no” and “stop” but they ignored me. Then they took turns on me. I distinctly remember the sound of my belt scraping the ground each time they took their turn on me. I blacked out after that and they woke up to find myself being thrown out of their car into my side garden of my house. It was very early in the morning and I could barely get myself up to walk. I managed to get into my house and in my bed. I woke up the next day in pain and immediately tried denying everything that happened to me. I tried so hard to block it out. I changed that night. I will never be the same. I never spoke to them again and I kept my distance at all measures. It wasn’t until some time later when I found out that they were bragging and telling everyone that I hooked up with all of them. As if I wanted to and knew what I was doing. I broke down to one friend (crying) but couldn’t get the strength to actually tell her or anyone else, till this day, what happened to me. As time goes on, I remember more bits and pieces of that night. A piece of me was taken that night and I hope karma gets them back for what they took from me.

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WYR

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