Anonymous Story: I was sexually assualted too

Anonymous Story: I was sexually assualted too

Hi all,

I’m one of the many people that had been raped at a young age and still deals with its aftermath (Shame, embarrassment and guilt). I was 14 years old boy at time when I was sexually assaulted. I was living in the Middle East at the time. My rapist offered a ride and i accepted it. He was in his late 30s. While heading to my destination, he talked to me into going to a gaming place and I said ok. After we left the place, he said he wanted to stop by a house. When we arrived, he asked to come with him and I did. It was an apartment. He knocked the door but no one opened it. He decided to break into the apartment. while he was trying to break in, the next door person came out. He asked why he was breaking into the appartment and he said it was his bother’s and he needed to get in urgently. the person asked him for his ID card and wrote down his information. We went into the apartment. He turned on the TV and asked me to sit down. Short time later, he started touching my genitals. I didn’t say anything. I was scared. He then removed my pants and raped me. I cried and begged him to stop but he would’t not stop. I screamed with pain and hoped the neighbor somehow would hear me and knock the door and that would somehow stop him to no avail. I tried to push him off and fight him but he was stronger than me. I continued to scream helplessly but he put one hand on my mouth and nose and the other on my head pinning me against the floor. I couldn’t breath. He came in me and finally released me. I was terrified and angry. I was sobbing. I couldn’t believe what this rapist just did to me. I was also angry with myself for putting myself in that situation. I didn’t know what to do. When i came home, my father was furious at me for being late. I didn’t tell him anyone else because i was afraid. After all, I was a boy and it would be too embarrassing to my family and me. I suffered silently ever since.Every time I remembered it (38 years old now), my heart sinks and I feel guilty as if it was my fault.

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WYR

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